Mijn eerste blog in nederlands

Dit is mijn eerste blog in nederlands. Ik had beloofd om een blog in nederlands schrijven na het passeren mijn nederlands tentamen. Zo, een goede nieuws is dat ik voor mijn nederlands examen geslaagd ben. De tentamen was niet zo moelijk maar heb ik altijd een bang voor examen. Bovendien, in vergelijken met "Dutch for Beginners", "Dutch Intermediate" is veel verschillend en moelijker. Het niveau van biede boeken is heel verschillend met elkaar. In het begin van Dutch Intermediate, ik vind het heel moelijk. Maar God maakte het makkelijker voor mij. Hij gaf me vrienden die me geholpen veel. Één van mijn vrienden is Boukje. Ze hielp mij met mijn huiswerk, mijn tentamen, en moedigde me aan nederlands te leren. Op mijn verjaardag, gaf ze mij cadeaus die me kon helpen in nederlands te leren. De tijd voor een kopje thee het beste was voor ons te oefenen. Met dank aan haar. Ze is een goede vriend voor mijn en mijn collega. Mijn ander collega Marloes helpt me ook met mijn huiswerk en oefenen. Terwijl het doen een moelijke taak, moet je heel wat aanmoedinging. Ik heb het veel van mijn collega's. Voor meer nederlands te leren, moet ik oefenen meer en meer "doodling". Ik ben doodling veel deze dagen. Terwijl ik naar mijn kantoor, ik doodle altijd. Mischien de mannen onderweg denken dat ik gek ben. Ik geniet van doodling! omdat het helpt bij het leren.

Ik heb een grap te tellen. Toen we nederlands leren, waren we maken veel fouten. Hadden we een veel intelligente dame in onze groep. Een dag, kom ze laat. De leraar vraagt hoe gaat het ermee. Ze zeg dat ik mooie ben. Ze bedoelde te zeggen  "Ik ben Moe (tired)" maar ze zegt "Ik ben Mooie" (Beautiful). De leraar zei dat ja, je mooi bent maar het is raar om te zeggen het zelf. we lachen veel. Dergelijke fouten komen veel in taalcurssen.

Ik weet dat ik veel fouten in mijn blog gemaakt. Ik laat het aan mijn nederlandse lezen om mijn te corrigeren. Dus ik houdt het bewerken van dit blog.

Een mooie dag verder voor jullie allemaal en Tot ziens,

Food for thought!

Did you ever encounter a situation when you meet somebody and you want to run away from them? I read a book during my childhood about spiritual knowledge and the author explained how our bodies disseminate rays and how people meeting us are affected by those rays. The author explained how you can analyze the rays that your body is disseminating by standing in front of a mirror for few minutes. I would partially disagree because such a process will have external influences as you have a tendency to misjudge yourself. 

When two persons meet and they both encounter with the rays that the other person is discharging, each one of them takes a decision to withhold the relationship or to carry it on. We, as we see, are not made up of a body with complex compound chemicals rather we are made up of rays. When this ray or light gets into a dead piece of mass, people see us. They see us as if we are beautiful or have some defect in the body. To prove this, ask some mother who will find her daughter the most beautiful girl in the world. Why this happens, because a mother is unable to see your outer self. You belong to her and she knows you from the time you were not existing. Therefore, we are all the time under a mass of lights and rays and we never recognize this truth nature has entrusted in us. This is a complex phenomenon. I am not a psychologist, or psychiatrist, or physiologist. I don't need to be one to understand this process. Science says that your retina gets more than half time of its original size when you see something that you like. This is something physical that can be measured, I just know what I feel from inside when I see my loved ones. I cannot forget the smile my 6 months old niece was giving me when I was facing a very difficult time of my life. Based on this, we love each other or we hate and we develop a strong telepathy with people who are closed to us. For example, we siblings constitute the similar chemical material while our chemistry is so different from each other that we have a strong tendency to hate their spouses while our siblings are deeply in love with them. Other than that, we rarely share the group of friends among our siblings. This clarifies that belonging to the same chemical composition does not mean belonging to the same set of rays or light. We love our siblings emotionally, deeply and whatever because nature is playing its role here. Its one of the miracles of Allah that he forms strong affinity among people who are otherwise so much different in the true me. As Allah explains in Al-Quran: 

30:21 And among His Signs is this, that He created for you mates from among yourselves, that ye may dwell in tranquillity with them, and He has put love and mercy between your [hearts]: Verily in that are Signs for those who reflect.

And therefore it is amongst His greatest blessings that despite sharing nothing in common, you live with someone really strange to you, sharing no habit no part of nature yet  you spend the whole life with them. I always wonder how we chose from a number of classmates only one Best Friend, and that remains our friend for decades and sometimes Till Death Do Us Part. 

This phenomenon enhances the polarization of people towards a particular group and creates tendency to pull the like-minded people towards them. This is the beginning of an end. This mutual grouping is part of nature but does not appreciate creating hatred and hostility. We do not accept others thoughts, ideas, language, color, caste, countries, religion, schools, thoughts, likes, dislikes, nature, style, and we ought to IMPOSE our nature on to the others. And WHHOOOOOOO everything ends. Why? Just imagine how world would have been if Almighty had created everything in White? Secondly, in the absence of all heterogeneity, the tendency for human to grow becomes limited as opposing views come from "within group". 

This is not an abrupt end, this is an open question, a food for thought for my readers! and I leave it up to them to give the end a shape! 

Need of an Economic Reform

For the last couple of months, I was thinking to work on a project - creating awareness on the weaknesses of current economic system and need for economic reformation. In the previous months, I saw some well-known lawyers and writers in Pakistan are working on similar projects but their goals are more quantitative while I am working only on the awareness side. This was a great motivation for me to kick start my work. Of course, European and American Economies which are suffering a lot from Economic turmoil are also working hard but I would like to make a bold argument here. Despite being a student of economics, I see serious loopholes and weaknesses on the grounds they have been working on. Anyone can see it whether knowing economics or not. For that reason, I posted some earlier blogs to set a ground for my discussion. In this blog, I would like to summarize the issues covering global economic crisis, their basis and how an efficient economic system can be developed to address them. My later blogs inshAllah would cover the important issues in detail. I don't intend to bring up a theory of my own, I am not John Maynard Keynes or Adam Smith or any of the fathers, mothers, or uncles of economics (I don't intend to be one) and I would again like to bring a bold statement here, I am not convinced with the models they presented. If Keynes economic model was so stable and value enhancing, our current economies which are based on his theories would not have such a steep downfall. I know much better economists - those who are surely not in your knowledge. The economies developed on their models resulted 100% employment, 100% sponsors but no one requiring assistance or any financing needs. Its a pity that world is totally unaware of such economic systems even those who know, give a deaf ear to them. 

We have to reckon upon the fact that today, bigger economies are falling down. Who would have expected American Economy to have such a great fallback or Italian Economy taking its last sighs. How euro is surviving the austerity is a big question mark but we cannot say how long Germany and France would be able to carry the dead weight loss of dying economies of Portugal, Spain, Italy and Greece. These are not small countries or economies. Anyways, I do not want to spend too much time here on European Crisis as there will be more posts carrying the needed stuff.

I presume most of my readers are not economists therefore I would not go technical :) I don't understand forces of supply and demand therefore I saw the simplest definition of economics on wiki (surprisingly) "Production, Distribution, and Consumption of Goods and Services in the Economy". Now I put my wiki on one side and try to put my own concepts here. How the Production, Distribution and Consumption is taking place? What is the basis on which everything is circulating. Its a Piece of Paper, its a darling of all of us and we all know it. Its name is "Currency". In my definition, "Money is a miraculous piece of paper which forms the basis of all the valuable things in the world (except morals)". When I say piece of paper, please try to hear the sarcasm in my words. Is it not astonishing that Queen Elizabeth's biggest palace worth so and so much dollars which are some pieces of papers, Sultan Brunei's gold aircraft worth a couple of pieces of paper - everything valuable on this earth worth some pieces of papers. The ups and downs of these currencies take place through a very vague process and in an unexpected event, you can fall down from hero to zero. Your Net Worth can be your Net Liabilities. What is behind such dramatic events? A "Paper currency". So my first target would be the reformation of system in which we value things. 

A paper currency is a non-trivial issue, paving way for such economic models that have ruined us from the roots. We assume everything is going to be alright once we are back on track and once countries start to grow in real terms. It is not possible now. We have opened a box of evils and the only key to close it back is to reform:

1) The mode of Exchange

2) The mode of Financing

3) The mode of Taxation

Only these three. I am not a scholar therefore, I would be taking some or more of the stuff from scholars based on my comprehensions. Just a request, if you would like to add something to my small scale project, please feel free to do that. Also, please motivate me to keep up my very small level work by criticizing, adding and communicating with me. I want to give my share to the world, my motive is to make it a better place to live in. Please let me know if you have different ideas about it. Let us contribute even the smallest thing we can! to make our world a better place to live in! I thank you very much in advance and Wishing you all a very happy 2012. 

Between Superficial and Artificial

I am a member of cohorts who can recall past to overrule this "Between Superficial and Artificial" to "Between Truth and Lies". Unfortunately a lot has changed during two decades. Truth has changed to Superficial and Lies are totally Artificial (meaning lying refer to total innovation, not touching reality from far). Before I go further, I should define a "Lie" more. Lie can be a total new creation, but it can have some element of reality. A gossip for example, can have roots from reality but with passage of information from person to person, it can be corrupted.  The time has come where Truth is analyzed and located only Superficially and Lies have no roots from genuineness and it is created from total falsehood - the time which was predicted by Abrahamic religions has come: "All the truth will be seen as lies and all the lies will be seen as truth" which refers to spread out of total falsehood in humanity. All kinds of vulgarity is now seen as "Freedom of Expression" and all kind of practices attached to one's belief is seen as "Extremism" and calling the names of each other's ancestors has become a common practice. 

One good example of such falsehood or misinterpretation of information is the attack on Iraq on the basis of a totally fabricated news regarding WMD resulting the loss of thousands of lives, needless to mention the loss of other related things. Who has lost or who has gained is yet another argument and I don't want to indulge into that but point is that there is a new form of dissemination of Artificial and or Superficial Information termed as "Media". You can disagree on the point that media was ever unbiased- no it was never unbiased. I have seen highly government oriented news bulletin but now it has taken another direction. In the following discussion, I will try to clarify my point regarding the dissemination of false information by media and resulting into the common man's misjudgment about others. A good is interpreted as bad and bad as good--Thanks to the media. In one of my earliest blogs, I wrote a 180 degree turn regarding the image of present President of Pakistan Asif Ali Zardari cleaning him from all the corruption charges and yet after he took Presidency holding back the previous position of considering him "The Most Corrupt Person of Entire Pakistani Nation". The image alteration came for a very short time during the election time period and as "some hidden powers" would have decided to elect him as next supreme power of Pakistan and when that happened, they worked on next agenda to tighten the rope around his neck so that he never commit any disloyalty from their set agenda. Thanks to Media. This is just an example from Pakistan, but I know countless other examples from other nations. 

In my previous writings, I was discussing about the scarcity of role models amongst nations; and media portray a very negative image of some popular tigers. Now it involved some such personalities in their dirty jokes, false information and baseless claims that according to some learnt persons have had all charismatic traits to qualify them as leaders of a nation. I can quote examples of mockery of such people who have been highly praised among their nations. A person who has been glorified for last 1400 years, now I can see images, text and false information, ruthless madness and all efforts to deprecate him.  Same holds for his counterpart yet 600 years elder than him who also has been humiliated in every possible way. This all causes anarchy and frustration. (These two most respected persons are Muhammad and Jesus respectively). The people who have been admired for centuries, the true leaders as we believe them  to be the savior of humanity are being confused as foe and enemy. All goes to media - Freedom reaching the abyss of ignorance. 

Any successful society is based upon justice, equality and keeping balance. Any society deviating from the above things are likely to collapse in very near future. Abusing my father and expecting me to consider it as freedom of expression is a total non-sense. Secondly, blaming someone without having an adequate explanation and good faith is also biggest of all crimes. This is what happening in today's world. I guarantee if Mother Teresa was alive today, she must have biggest corruption charges against her. Take for example the campaign led by Anna Hazaray in India and how his fellows are facing biggest charges of corruption. This wave of defamation against them surely would not have erupted had they not put their hands into this fire. 

Although, today's media is abusing any popular figure whether good or bad but there are some elites who are somehow respected and their character defamation is considered as a crime. We must reckon upon the traits of people who have been admired and respected in today's forged world. We may find them disobeying laws of nature, spreading bloodshed, hatred. Are they worth calling a leader or respectable? Do you think a leader sleeps in palaces while leaving the rest under open sky? Do you consider one as your chief who has a high protocol saving his own life but opens up all kinds of threats for you? Is it a trait of a captain to stand last in the queue of a dying force. NO!!

I emphasize the importance of point that nations have not stopped producing leaders, they are there but unfortunately they have been confused as your enemies and your enemies are hidden in a veil of friendship and leadership. People are desperately waiting for a savior, a leader but they are dispersed and confused who to trust who not to trust. Good is seen as worst and Worst is seen as Better. All credit goes to Media.

I do not say Media is all a crap. They sometimes highlight those darkened areas in our society that would otherwise remain unnoticed. But this comes at a cost. Showing facts does not mean intruding into one's personal space. Most of the times, our Media goes too far and start to unveil the parts of one's life which he/she otherwise would not like to disclose. A personal space is a fundamental right of everybody and depriving one of this right is another big transgression. Sometimes we like our superhero but then Media presents such hidden fact of his life that we are forced to dislike him. 

The consequence is that the world is standing on the verge of destruction as a result of misunderstand and making abrupt judgment about people. People ought to judge you on the basis of your background and color which is the most abhorrent thing one can do. I can recall that once after a rigorous running to catch the train, I missed that so I immediately went to Information with a query. For a second, I jumped into a wrong place thinking it as a queue but realized my mistake in just two seconds. When asked a person about the correct queue, his reply was astonishing. He blamed my religion and country for this accidental and impulsive mistake. I went into a total shock. Another incidence occurred when I took a wrong way for entering into a tram. This was my first time taking a tram and therefore I should have been forgiven for that but instead the TT abused my country. At both instances, because I didn't see a connection for accusing my background for such faults because even if did that deliberately, I did not learn such law breaking things in any of the constitution or a religious book :) These were just two small examples while there are a couple of such things with greater intensity. How could people pass judgement on me while they never met me? Its the magic of media that can surely tell you who you are while you yourself don't know those facts. I don't say those who share the same beliefs as me are totally free from this kind of emotions. I would regretfully acknowledge the fact that we are as or even more corrupted in our thoughts than any other person belonging to a different group. Yes it is true. 

As long as we keep on passing judgement on people without digging for truth, we are very likely to astray and then we will continue led by individuals similar to those ruling us now! As long as we are moving between the two ends of superficiality and artificiality like a pendulum, we cannot reach the reality and then no movements, calls, revolution will bring the results. And the deprived masses of society cannot develop the real spirit necessary to make reforms- we continue to go inside this abysmal. I do not make any conclusion as you might be expecting, my point was to bring to light one of the forces responsible for hindrance of our Advancement- Humans are growing but humanity is getting scarier and scarier - exponentially! 

The Wall Street Magic

Perhaps the other name I could think of for this blog was the "Evils of Joint Stock", but I knew in that way I could not attract attention of my readers so I used my naïve business knowledge to market my blog. Few hundred years ago, our poor (deprived) man was fighting with his destitute state and suffering. You may ask "Well he is still suffering today", what point you want to make? Actually few hundred years ago, he knew he was suffering but today, this poor man is intoxicated with hope of becoming a billionaire like Mr. Warren Buffet. Whatever Mr. Buffet (with all the respect) says become part of syllabus of Business Students and remembered and respected as something heavenly. His dictum may motivate any penniless or indigent to strive and succeed. I have nothing against him. I was talking about the destitutes who were undergoing lots of distress during the time when a capitalist had money and all the resources. Those who had no money were depending on the resources provided to finance their subsistence by this capitalist so that he and his family could survive. In return, the capitalist had designed an excellent "Financial Model". According to that model, he was not only able to get back his principal, but the return was more than the money he had "invested" in that family and they remained slave for their entire lives. This slavery could last for centuries, so if your great grand father had taken loan, it was likely that even your kids could not be able to pay it off. The markup for such an amount was obnoxious. Yet the long for wealth of this capitalist was a never ending thing. Who amongst you consider this guy to be smart? His offspring proved to be smarter than him. 

When it was smelled that this system is going to collapse and there is a better alternative to keep their rule on the wealth by depriving masses of whatever they have. The concept of "Joint Stock" was therefore created. This reversed the role of Financing and Financed Party. The poor man who had been victimized for centuries was given a very lucrative deal. "We have been financing you for a long time and in return you have been paying us the interest - Now you are going to finance us and we will pay you the return". This naive guy was astonished. Now I am going to be the owner of resources and now its my turn to take revenge, I will be rich, time is mine. He could not realize that this financier whose elders were so smart, how their offspring can design a system that goes against themselves. While the earlier Joint Stock could be traced back in 1250, this phenomenon strengthen its roots in nineteenth century and finally specific legislation was introduced in 1844- the so called "Joint Stock Companies Act 1844". 

Usually any business venture is financed by two sources; Capital (belonging to the owner) and Loan. Small lenders were asked to be owners of a big company by buying shares. In their very small chunks, these small capitalists developed the foundations of big sometimes multinational companies, they could never dream of owning. In other words, they were the financier of the companies ventured by the wealthy & smart. The Financial Model working behind was: the owner will have the last priority in case the business fails; Fair Enough! There were other so called Micro Economics phenomenon introduced addressing the Moral Hazard, Information Asymmetry, Principal Agent Problem, whatever that could satisfy those investors. But in reality, everything was standing on a bubble. The provider of the loan had the largest priority of payback when the business was diluted. So wealthy remained wealthy, because the model was designed by them. They had a perfectly designed - the most optimal financial model so that when the company remains in profit, they get the highest return and when it fails, they get (at least) their principal, to pack up and start another venture.  

The Occupy Wall Street is a cry from those victimized by this model. Do you think this model will survive as it is or another innovative model will be developed increasing NOT BRIDGING the gap between Rich & Poor. Do you think this Occupy Wall Street will help and some revolution will take place moving the resources towards the deprived people, or what else do you think will happen. I reserve my comments at this moment for another time. But my researcher husband must have found his hypotheses here. 

H1: The person who lends in a joint stock is richer than the provider of capital (Bond holders vs. Shareholders)

H2: The probability of failure of a company whose lenders are richer is higher than the probability of failure of companies where finance comes from poorer sources. 

H3: .................................................................... (I know he will add up something here). 

Coming back

Hello readers,

I am back into my blog world once again! The reason for temporary distance from the blogs was not that I had nothing to write, or I was too busy, or I didn't have enough motivation to put my thoughts into words. Strange enough, There are so many things going on in my mind that I feel injustice to write one while ignoring the others. World is changing rapidly, every second brings up an issue, perhaps serious issues have become part of our daily life. We all know the world is digging into a great depression, Euro is on Artificial Pacemaker, Occupy Wall Street is another buzzword of economics, governments have taken heavy debts and in an attempt to save them from sovereign risk, those countries are given lucrative bailout packages and everyone knows this won't help in the absence of "Growth". But hey, where is growth? To me, it looks like all the money is sinking towards Arms Industry, Cosmetics and Health sector! We humans know each and every way to kill each other. Suffering from self-obsession, we know "I am the most innocent" but each one of us has a contribution in taking our mother earth towards doom. Funny thing is that whenever we have a recessionary trend in economy, money is pulled out from "Education" while no nation is willing to cut budget on "Defence". Which defence? We all want to defend ourselves and in that attempt, we forget that others also have equal right to survive. In that respect, I find no discrimination among East and West, rightists or leftists, Americans or Africans. We have become brutal animals eating the masses of each other and trust me no one can escape from the consequences. Previous centuries also marked with brutality and cruelty but there were heroes! We remember them with respect and pride but now no one seems to be a hero. That's the difference. And hence our well-paid policy makers cannot help us because we need help from "Masses" not them.

People say its a war between the nations, but I don't see any nations. We are all a single nation in the world. No nation is different from each other; of course, we differ in color, names, religion, language but we all are short sighted, mean, superficial, material, cruel (Please add all the negative adjectives here). Yes we are one! All of the affluent masses are the same. The gap between rich and poor was never so large as it is now, and I am not talking in terms of their economic standing. We are a step ahead of those times of slavery! When I put a glance over those economic indicators going up and down, I feel a desperate need of some social measures depicting our mental state of sickness and I am sure, our affluent state is digging our own grave.

Now let me come to those who are really responsible for all of this mess. Earlier, I was talking about the heroes that we don't have anymore. Nations were proud of their saviors and now you will see people make dirty jokes about their leaders (who were supposed to be called heroes). Social media is busy developing millions of jokes a day about those big respected names, and there is no nation willing to accept their ruling parties. The history of world is evident that heroes do not come with full stomachs, gold adorned, accompanied by attractive female army, graduates from top business schools or any material things. They come out of hardships, they are polished with grieves, they are decorated with pain, they are shined with hunger and their excellence comes out of blood. No big man is created in the most favorable circumstances. The problem is that those small people (living below our so called poverty line) have stopped producing those big heroes. Our poor man does not bother to change his state, if his children are bombed by a combined force of 28 states, he will cry in himself, he does not have the courage to speak for his rights. God doesn't help those who do not want to help themselves. I don't hold responsible the greater nations of this world; as long as those weak masses keep SPOON FEEDING the richer, their lust will keep growing. Even God hates those weak people who have no desire to change their state. 

God has designed the economic system of this world in such a way that if money is not circulating from Richer to Poorer, it will start to PERISH. We are in a similar state. In my following blog, I would like to write about a cancer called "Joint Stock" and how it created a hole in the pocket of this world. Our world at present is in need of an Economic Reform supporting not pulling out the roots of people. I cannot even hope for something good because I don't see a spark in the deprived masses of society. Till that time, no redesigning or reformation will take place-- for sure! But system is close to collapse and approaching its end with an exponential pace.

Missiles fired on Libya: another war imposed on humanity?

I opened the newspaper felicitously after Pakistan's victory against unbeatable Australia to read more about it when saw a despairing news of allied forces attack on Libya. For a moment, I was stuck because I could never expect such a great piece of imprudent action at a very critical time. The allied forces are having a highly depressive outcome against their expectations in war in Afghanistan, and when the world has not forgotten the hidden contemplation against war on Iraq, the drone strikes in Pakistan killing dozens of innocent civilians everyday that has proven ramifications yet another involvement of US and its allies in upcoming episode of bloodshed in Libya has shaken me deeply. I have asked myself this question a million times that is there no peaceful solution to the problem? Why everything is getting entangled in the vicious circle of hostility, contentions, conflict, fight, bloodshed, annihilation, hatred and why is the world being painted with red? If war was the only solution, why we don't see any improvement in past 10 years amid the 9/11 massacre; in fact the situation has been worsening with every passing day? And had the war been fruitful only by a smallest fraction, the two world wars would have made the world a nicest place to live in. I am embarrassed that we didn't learn anything from past, we are the same filled with bestiality, ignorance, barbarism, false pride and ruthlessness. It is astonishing that the present economic conditions have caused so much of inflation yet human blood has become astonishingly cheaper! 

If these superpowers of the world are being asked the reason for their war, they give their stereotype reply that they are striving for peace. This situation has been beautifully portrayed 1400 years ago in Quran:

And when it is said to them, "Do not cause corruption on the earth," they say, "We are but reformers." (Chapter 2, Verse 11)

Had these forces ever endeavored for real peace and they were the reformers, the peacemakers, they would have followed the message of Quran which I would say in simple words the crux of Islam that: 

"Anyone who saves one life, it is as if he has saved the whole of mankind and anyone who has killed another person, it is as if he has killed the whole of mankind" (Chapter 5, Verse 32).

And a parallel utterance in Jewish Scripture "We find it said in the case of Cain who murdered his brother, the voice of thy brother's blood cries out (Mishnah Sanhedrin 4:5)...... "and he says, it does not say he has blood in the singular, but bloods in the plural. It was singular in order to show that to him who kills a single individual, it should be reckoned that he has slain all humanity. But to him who has preserved the life of a single individual, it is counted that he has preserved all mankind." (Genesis 4:10).

If you have no idea about the importance of human life and how you feel when you save one, go and feed a dying kid in Africa, take a step to provide shelter to homeless people in Japan and give a missing child of a mother and look into her eyes then; and that there are still thousands of flood effecties in Pakistan save them from severity of weather there, go help the countless Haiti earth quake effecties who are fighting against the aftermath of the earth quake one after the other. Why have we failed to understand that the war remains impotent, rather weakens our roots and there are clearly NO benefits even to the parties imposing it on other nations. It seems that the war history from thousand years doesn't bring any lesson for us, and that we are not killing others, we are killing ourselves and our next generation. I wonder how those eyes sleep that cause tons of tears round the globe, how such eyes ever meet with their offspring when they have snatched parents from their children or the other way around, how their hearts ever find peace while they have plagued the world with bombs, suicidal attacks and guns. If such people consider themselves to be humans, I am embarrassed for being part of this group. 

I have so many questions that are blowing up my mind...Can their deadly laboratories ever stop generating the deadly mass of destruction and their resources being utilized for inventing human helping technologies, and their military bases stop sending the troops for war and rather send them for helping the needy and homeless people? Can we spend our heavy substantial budget share that is otherwise spent on wars in enlightening the next generation with knowledge? Shall I be able to see the real peace in my life because me and my cohorts are jaded with brutal killings! We are born in war and we are living in wars.... Shall we take our last sighs in war and would see the world leading towards a deadly end even till our last moment? 

I am worn out and I don't see a ray of hope! the more I think about it, the more I feel that perhaps it was not the Satan who was cursed, but the human of our time. Even the satanic forces would be taking refuge from the human of today for the way we have corrupted the world and shed eachothers' blood for a nominal price or mere worldly gains. I wish I was never born so that my eyes would not have seen this much I have seen till now, and the deadly show seems endless. We are perishing and destroying and this is not happening quietly! The only thing is our lips that are quiet and everybody is silently watching this horror show going on! If the lips remain dead, the next generation would curse on us for taking them to stone age. I am ready to play my part for peace, is there anyone who want to accompany me??